hm

should i tell you i love you ?

I had the best dream last night.
My dream was that I fell asleep in your arms (L)

Hmmm

Well when you think about it this way, after what you went through last year it's only natural that you still like her and it's only natural for you to want the best from her.. What the hell! There I go again. This whole thing just confuses me.
Some times I wonder, what would of happend if I had of never met you. Would I be madly in love with some one else or would my heart still long for you ? And I wonder even more what would happen if you tell me you love me. I think I would faint. If something like that happened I would be so happy I would know the one I love, loves me back and there's finally another person in this world who feels the way i do. But it aint gonna happen. Ever. Because no one likes me. " don't be so harsh on yourself" they say. But if you only new what I knew then you would understand. 
When you asked me, I could have been a bitch and said he's perfect for her they make such a good match. But instead I told you, she'd be fine and he's a nice boy but that didn't stop your worrying did it..... Nooo way 
All I can say is I don't know why she doesn't feel the way you suposedly "felt" (even though some people think you still do feel) about her your a great guy. Don't let any one ever tell you different

I love you more than you'll ever know, you realize that right?
No? You don't? Oh I know why. Because your completly oblivious to the love and affection I show to you. Even if I look like I'm mad with you  I'm not. I could never be mad with you. Your the one I want to be with your THE one for me I'm sure of it. I love you I really do. 
Although you don't love me do you. You never will, will you. No one would love some one like me I guess I'm just not made for love. I guess i'll just have to live the rest of my life as lonley as ever and every day I'll regret not telling you how I feel. 
What if I moved schools. I could tell you on the last day give you a kiss good bye and never see you again. Nah screw that. Hmmm what if I told you how I felt right now.... How would I say it? Would I jut be like **** I love you? Or would it be more like **** I need to tell you something. I can't keep this inside any longer I LOVE YOU! No that's deffinetly NOT  how it should be done. I don't know what to do. If I told you would it ruin our friendship? Or would you tell me you felt the Same way?    

Note to self. Shut eyes when spraying impulse. It hurts like a bitch

I hope not

I hope not 


I will be so shattered if you really do like her if she is the one for you.
You'd be a good couple. You and her.
I'm supposed to be In love with you what the he'll am I saying?
Well I guess I just want you to be happy

Well today was an eventful one..
No thanks to Cody Lachlan and Shaun!
It was a pretty good dnt lesson lmao I had fun  
When there wasn't any one pinching my back!

I love you, I really do

 I love you 
That's what I would say if I had the guts 
But I don't 
So I guess you'll never know 
I know that you *think* I like you 
You don't *know* that I really do.
You don't know how much it hurts me to see that you care so much about her. How you want to make sure everything is perfect for her. Every day I wish that was me. Every day I hope to cross your mind even if it's only for a second
When you get asked who do you like it's so painful to hear you say no one because a little part of me always hopes that that lucky girl would be me. 
But then there's the other part of me that says I'm not good enough for you. I never have been and I  never will be. That's what hurts me the most. That little voice.
Why can't you get the hints I leave behind for you. Why don't you understand the way I feel. If I could I would tell you any thing but if it was going to ruin everything I would rather keep it bottled up. 
Today I read a story about a boy who was in love with his best friend. Years go by and he keeps his love from her but he stands by her through thick and thin. Then comes the day when she gets married. The best friend is sitting in the church pews and she walks up to him saying oh my goodness you came ! And she kisses him on the cheek. Little does she know that that kiss meant the world to him. About 60 years passes and this woman dies. The best friend goes to her funeral and looks in to the coffin at the face of the woman he once loved he sees a note titled to my bestfriend. He opens the envelope and reads: every night I come home crying because he doesn't notice me the way i notice him. If only he felt the way I felt, I love him so much and I wish we could be more than just best friends. As he was reading this a lone tear rolled down his face.

Don't ever let this happen to me and you if you love me tell me now. Please don't leave me hanging forever.... 
 

Howdy ya'll




thats all i got





super bored





:D
:)
:/
:(
>:(
GRRRR
lmao
im soooooo boored

"The book of love is long and boring
And written very long ago
It's full of flowers and heart-shaped boxes
And things we're all too young to know"

xx

i love you for ever and always

FML

FML
ITS NOT FUKING TRUE!

That's a nifty little sentance Jeffrey I think I might use it ...
There's this guy you see..... I love him
dw Jeffrey I'm not crushing on you lmao

BIIIIIIIIAAAAAAATTTCCCCCCCCH

AS IF YOU WOULD DO THAT!
cow

SURPRISE !!!!

OMG !
i love my friends so much !
A SURPRISE PARTY !
naaawwww you guys are the beeest

:/

was it really that bad!?!??

Shattered

chocolate

ok i lied
i have started to eat more chocolate XD i know i said i wouldnt but i lied :D

guilt

dont you hate it when you have a sleep over and its all going well up until THAT faithful question POPS up??
"so who do you like"???? :/ that is somehthing you usally keep to your self
exept when you get hit with the guilt card:/
"ive told you every thing come just tell me" she says

bgnjfvikbacsjhdfvb (btw that doesnt say any thing i just whacked my head on the keyboard)

why can i keep my big mouth shut!

grrr

Blehh

I think I'm gonna be ssick never again will I eat chocolate :( ever
I think I'm going to explode
I also think ...... I don't know what I think
sleepy and ill don't go well together
I HATE CHOCOLATE for now lol

LOL

Caitlin its not working!!!!!!!!! lmao
love yoooouuu xoxoxo

damn these butterflies

damn these stupid butterflies -_-
i feel like there are thousands of little people are having a party im my tummie >:(
stupid stupid stupid stupid meeeee
and all of this.... is coz of you