I love you, I really do

 I love you 
That's what I would say if I had the guts 
But I don't 
So I guess you'll never know 
I know that you *think* I like you 
You don't *know* that I really do.
You don't know how much it hurts me to see that you care so much about her. How you want to make sure everything is perfect for her. Every day I wish that was me. Every day I hope to cross your mind even if it's only for a second
When you get asked who do you like it's so painful to hear you say no one because a little part of me always hopes that that lucky girl would be me. 
But then there's the other part of me that says I'm not good enough for you. I never have been and I  never will be. That's what hurts me the most. That little voice.
Why can't you get the hints I leave behind for you. Why don't you understand the way I feel. If I could I would tell you any thing but if it was going to ruin everything I would rather keep it bottled up. 
Today I read a story about a boy who was in love with his best friend. Years go by and he keeps his love from her but he stands by her through thick and thin. Then comes the day when she gets married. The best friend is sitting in the church pews and she walks up to him saying oh my goodness you came ! And she kisses him on the cheek. Little does she know that that kiss meant the world to him. About 60 years passes and this woman dies. The best friend goes to her funeral and looks in to the coffin at the face of the woman he once loved he sees a note titled to my bestfriend. He opens the envelope and reads: every night I come home crying because he doesn't notice me the way i notice him. If only he felt the way I felt, I love him so much and I wish we could be more than just best friends. As he was reading this a lone tear rolled down his face.

Don't ever let this happen to me and you if you love me tell me now. Please don't leave me hanging forever....